It’s something I think about sometimes. Would I have ended up this way were I cis?

I’m not sure. On one hand I can very easily draw the line from my lack of care and apathy about life to my dysphoria

Though on the other hand I’ve still got autism anxiety depression and adhd and such.

I think I might of ended up this way regardless tbh. Though maybe I’d have broken out of it. It’d be more bearable in that universe but that’s not the card I was dealt