I remember a few months ago when I hadn’t even measured my bideltoid or anything because I had the self-restraint to avoid getting too brainwormed. I really used to think I could make it, given a year or two. now… I can’t see it working out at all how I’d hoped
also, it’s not even just the measurements. every day I look in the mirror and realize how top-heavy I really am. I can cope with numbers, but seeing reality is undeniable