whenever i bring it up with anyone, a friend, my mum or a therapist i always get the same ‘oh everyone talks to themselves answer’. and online tests focus a lot on hallucinations or mania.

i had a convo earlier about andor about what we like and don’t like about it. then some casual chat about food and cooking. i don’t ‘hear’ or ‘see’ things, i don’t confuse reality with imagination, i just sometimes spend an hour deep in conversation with a presence. they don’t have an appearance but they have a location, say a place in my room to where i can talk towards and they can move freely. usually we’re of the same opinion and it feels like a chain of thoughts. other times it’s a bit of a back and forth.

im fine with it, i just wish i could have the brain of a known normal human for a day to understand if im having the normal human experience™