like i’ve got so much stuff to actually do, but i just can’t motivate myelf to do it. i’ve pretty muchstaring at my stuff to do for the past 3hrs and done absolutely nothing. i just don’t care about it
like i’ve got so much stuff to actually do, but i just can’t motivate myelf to do it. i’ve pretty muchstaring at my stuff to do for the past 3hrs and done absolutely nothing. i just don’t care about it
Oh okay, i see.
If youre not able to live without being suicidal or having episodes meds would help, thats why i asked if u had ever seen a professional. But indeed the healthcare system is super violent and uses everything it can against us.
Im sorry you dont have more open minded ppl around you. Theres no possibility for you to meet any new person ? I mean, i you live in a not too small city it might have a trans association.
Sorry if i sound naive !
it’s okay, I don’t blame u if u are naive, you don’t know my situation at all. I’m just appreciative that someone has talked to me.
obviously i’ve felt mega miserable to the point of wanting to die or frustrated that there’s nothing I can do. thankfully, I’ve sort of developed some coping mechanisms myself over tim, which aren’t harmful, like escapism in books. I don’t think i’ll ever get to that point, and if I do I’d at least try stuff to be ok like fully transitioning to everyone 24/7 regardless of consequence.
now that it’s been a day it’s less “they will hate me” and more “I didn’t know”. like some days I feel like I do have open minded friends, of them, 2 are lesbians and one is gay, and they clearly feel comfortable as one even confided in me first before telling anyone else, even parents. but the thing is, I don’t think any of them would reciprocate and care about me. like I don’t want to dump my problems and be a huge burden when I’m clearly a fake and fraudulent woman.
Oh, you should talk to your friends. Little by little, introduce the topic, its not like theyre heterosexual. If they support you it will help u so so bad