it’s okay, I don’t blame u if u are naive, you don’t know my situation at all. I’m just appreciative that someone has talked to me.

obviously i’ve felt mega miserable to the point of wanting to die or frustrated that there’s nothing I can do. thankfully, I’ve sort of developed some coping mechanisms myself over tim, which aren’t harmful, like escapism in books. I don’t think i’ll ever get to that point, and if I do I’d at least try stuff to be ok like fully transitioning to everyone 24/7 regardless of consequence.

now that it’s been a day it’s less “they will hate me” and more “I didn’t know”. like some days I feel like I do have open minded friends, of them, 2 are lesbians and one is gay, and they clearly feel comfortable as one even confided in me first before telling anyone else, even parents. but the thing is, I don’t think any of them would reciprocate and care about me. like I don’t want to dump my problems and be a huge burden when I’m clearly a fake and fraudulent woman.