looking at old photos. i was more attractive as a twink man thing. now im just a thing. the way my old clothes sit on my body is just ugly and unappealing, but I’m too honnish to wear anything else.
i could’ve actually had a little fun with my life maybe. i’d finish school instead of dropping out. maybe even get a partial scholarship for a mediocre college a couple cities away. I actually had good friends for the first time basically ever too. I could’ve lived for at least a couple years, before kmsing. too late to go back now, so probably i just kms
why not?? i am 6’3 with massive shoulders, big head, big neck. etc. my face would maybe be savable with ffs, bvut i’d probably still not pass. i am also too much of a failure to ever reach ffs so it doesn’t matter. anyway, both roads lead to kms, i couldve at least pretended to be a person for a couple years.
dysphoria is a worse fate than anything
hrt has done nothing for my dysphoria, hrt can’t fix me. it’s okay, i don’t think i ever really expected it to work