I literally broke down in the middle of the first semester and ended up in the psych ward due to losing my entire friend group over my family situation getting so bad and my negativity becoming so toxic that they simply couldn’t take it anymore and were really hurting and constantly worried about me killing myself…

Now after the psych stay where I didn’t even get the chance to talk once about my actual fucking emotions or about transition of anything…

I’m back at university but have to do so much to catch up but I don’t even have the capacity or strength to do it and catch up or do anything…

Do I just do less because if I do, they might also cancel my student loan in like a year from now…

Ugh, fuck

  • pleasantaftertastes
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    2 days ago

    I’m so sorry. Ask for counsel, if you can about your loan. If it is too much, drop some stuff maybe take it later

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
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      2 days ago

      I can’t drop stuff or else I’ll have even more stuff to catch up on… I could try to do that, maybe even I could justify it and the loan issue won’t be an issue but right now my courses are mixed up in a fashion were I can’t do one thing without the others (technically I could but then I’d not have a full completed module) and so idk… tough luck