i dont know why but before i had some kind of naive hope. wont bother saying why. i dont want to go on anymore, whats the fucking point. i know how stereotypical this sounds but ill never be a girl. wahts the point. ill fail my exams. i wont get student housing. oh poor me am i right? dumb fucking tranny thinking he has it bad. mentaly ill fuck. whatever. ive never been this low before and i dont know if ill get the chance to recover. dont even know why im posting this, guess i just want attention like the faggot i am. im shaking in rage because i exist. i should never have been born. the 7584372853rd tranny to make this kind of post award
Hope kinda sucks tbf I don’t think I’ve ever gotten anywhere on hope. Just grit, and sure, you go a little insane but I think the world just does that to you. Suffering sucks no matter what, and it’s not a contest. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this, sometimes it’s better to just give up for a day or two. I don’t know how I’ve come this far based on what has happened to me, but my resilience is still worth more than overachieving everything, because I’m overcoming great hardship just by being alive, and with you, I couldn’t imagine going to school and being able to concentrate enough, I honestly don’t know how you could do that.
i havent consentrated or gone to school. thats why im failing. hope worked when i had it, but it was false. dont know where i got it from. now its gone and i have nothing. living seems pointless and i can off myself whenever i want. ill give myself some weeks
Try to give some extra attention to urself, don’t just rot or starve yourself or whatever. The most important thing is self compassion, even if it feels impossible. Idk what else to say but that you know it’s hard, and I’m going through the same process u are unfortunately.
yeah there isnt much to say, ik that. thanks anyways
