I can’t keep hiding all the medical proceedures I need. Not being able to live near school is tiring, and I can never make any decision for myself, from the clothes I wear and my hairstyle to if I want to move out or follow a new treatment.

I wish it didn’t come to that, because the thought of fleeing makes me terrified. I wish I could talk to them and they would understand, but they never do. I don’t even understand why it terrifies me. My friends keep asking me why I care. I just don’t know