Family gathering? cancelled only for me though. Hanging out with any sibling? delayed six weeks in a row. Hanging out with friends? Delayed until every bodies out of the country.

It doesn’t even bother me or make me tear up anymore especially when it’s last minute or three times in a row. Practically have come to expect it. It’s because I give off a sad vibe. Was told by my sister she would have invited me to her new years celebration thing but it makes people sad to be around me so I would have ruined the vibe of the night.