Im currently doing an art commission and I already used like most of the money for fucking weed. Technically, it’s fair because Im already at the “no refunds” stage of the art, but still. Imagine what the commissioner would think if they knew I spent the money they gave me on fucking weed. They’d probably think I’m a typical ghetto brown. I just need to relax for a little I think,

my body is aching and I’ve been getting 4 hours of sleep for the past two fucking weeks because I’m drugged up on coffee, and making art or editing for literally 6-12 hours a day. Sometimes I don’t sleep until fucking 11am because making art is extremely important to me and I want it to be a career. But if art is technically my stay at home job now, then I should be saving up that money for the sake of having good financial habits and financial security. But instead my Mexican bean monkey ass is buying fucking weed for $40.

Im a fucking loser and I feel like I’m losing it. I hope to god the person actually likes the art I make for them when it’s finished, but fuck I wish I didn’t need to rely on coffee for productivity and weed for relaxation. it’s torture and my mind is already fucked as is.

(art in picrel not mine)