Not trans-related for once, just venting.

To make a long story short: Around October I got really sick. Not sure if it was covid, the flu, a cold or whatever, but it was the sickest I’ve ever been, with a week-long fever, weeks of feeling terrible and barely being able to do daily chores. Since then, I’ve been out of the gym because I haven’t fully recovered since, and my physical health has been plummeting. I’ve tried to get back into the gym two times by now, but each time, I got sick immediately afterwards and was knocked out for weeks again. Feels like I pick up every single cold and flu that’s going around now, when I used to be basically immune and never get sick ever, despite (or because of) working in the medical field.

Right now, I’m feeling kiiiinda okay, so I’m lacing up for the gym again, but deep down I feel like I’ll just get sick again. I just can’t stand waiting for a recovery that will never happen anymore. It truly feels like I will never feel fully fit and healthy again. Like I’ll never recover. It sucks.