And this is genuinely so fucking weird to me. Why did I feel like that? Why did I feel like my shoulders were small? Why did I train to make them wider? Why did I feel I wasn’t manly enough when I was always taller and wider than most of my peers? Why did it only click inside me that I’m trans when I was 17?
Am I just some fucking mentally ill larper?

what? no? i always felt fuzzy inside when someone said that one thing i did or have was girly?