Yes Ive recorded EVERY time ive passed, and what happened, so that I could try to replicate it again
heres something ive learned
Nothing makes sense anymore and i should shoot myself over the inconsistency and lack of passing :(
I feel like making an excel spreadsheet is probably somewhat obsessive and unhealthy but idk
Now ur getting it! Yeah i hyper fixate on passing cus ADHD would rather do that than anything else :(
Do strangers gender you in general? When I was semipassing, people often avoided to gender me in any way, even though it sounded abnormal sometimes.
omg yeah, they AVOID it like the plague. I rarely hear any Sir in a while. Thats only been a recent development though. I dont think its semi passoid thing, it feels more like a tranny thing
Lmao, imagine passing
sorry girl but I dont even really pass, its more likely they just got confused
I never get that at all. Yeah, I only ever boymode, but still. I know a lot of cis male metalheads who malefail sometimes just because of their long hair and because they are not ogres (not 6ft+)
More of these came from honmoding or girlmoding than actually boymoding. I think only one of those is from a boymode tbh
shut up
I know you love graphs, but please don’t make and record something like this. It will drive you mad. Just continue your progress.
actually stuff like this makes me feel more sane then anything else. Makes me feel like I can pass. Because its happened. I just cant wait for the day that I NEVER have to touch this again cus ive passed so much
If it helps, good. look at all of the passing you have done so far!
How long have you been on hrt ? And how often do you have to talk to strangers ?
Also the spreadsheet only measures a small period of time, but the last two months have been a bit better
Im sorry you feel this bad, hope you will be able to enter more en more mailefails in the spreadsheet
I started HRT in August 2024. Took me a year before I passed at all. Im truly measuring since then.
I go to college, and usually am doing stuff in public. On an average day, I interact with maybe 5 people who dont personally know me. If Im in the city, like I usually am on weekends, thats up from 1 to like 20.
I would say that Ive gotten 3 genders in the past week, and all have seen me as male
Honestly, i think i would be lowkey going insane if i didnt pass a lot this week. But if i lose that ALREADY??? I havent passed since then and its freaking me out
oh you see a lot of people every week
yeah sometimes passing is not regular at all, its a weird thing im praying that youll be gendered correctly this week
thanks girlieeee
holy based… i did this actually but stopped keeping track. not cuz there were too many i just didnt go out enough and forgot about it.
honestly, reminds me that it IS possible, even if rare
