It feels like my life is falling apart. I’m not even eating, I don’t feel hungry or thirsty when I start gaming so then I just forget to do everything. Yesterday I broke down crying in therapy, even though I don’t remember having cried in therapy before.

I went out for a quick walk and to get some groceries, and the whole time I was outside I just felt really uncomfortable, and the weather was so nice and everyone else was enjoying themselves, and I felt like a cave troll in comparison. And then I forgot to buy something I needed for my dinner, so I need to go out again, but I don’t want to go outside without showering first. I don’t remember being this disregulated before, because in the past even if I was really depressed I could at least still make sure I ate and showered regularly.