Like I can order dick off of Grindr like it’s fucking doordash, but I can’t imagine a man ever loving me, marrying me, wanting to start a family with me.

Like I think with enough work I can become pretty attractive in a androgynous twinky way. But what’s the point if basically every dream and goal I have in life is impossible.

Can I really ask a man to do that. To take the social cost of being with someone like me. To ask him to lose family for me, maybe even his parents. To hurt his career if I ever show my face to his colleagues. To never have children biologically with his wife.

I want that life so bad, but it hurts so much.

Well, at least I have creepy chasers. I can go be someone’s fetish they discard as soon as the post nut clarity hits like I deserve.