idk how i’ll even do that. i guess, exercise? start going to class again? make a few phone calls i’ve been putting off? i don’t know if i’ll ever be able to make irl friends, but one good thing leads to another. a starting off point gives me the forward momentum i need to propel myself further, in theory. idk. i always get this feeling when i’m about to sleep and it always fades when i wake. and idk how i’d even start. do i just, show up one day? to everything or is it gradual? if i stumble how do i recover? how do i even start eating again? maybe it’s just something i take one step at a time. maybe it’s just one of those things where i just have to put one foot in front of the other, and continue that for a thousand paces, and place faith in the hope that by the end of it, i’ll have walked a thousand paces. yk? idk