The eunuch is kinda literally me, the gay boy maybe to a lesser extent

I may be a rare midshit version of “the intersex”, but idk, it’s not a perfect match. I’m certainly neurotic.

I always had this weird feeling that there should be, like, and opening under my penis that wasn’t actually there, always felt like my testicles were in the way of it, felt kinda crazy about it. I have memories as young as being like 5 and tugging on them and crying. Then when I was like 11 my Mom brought up the existence of intersex people out of the blue, and how some of them get their genitals “corrected” by their parents, and went on to emphatically insist she would never do that (in a tone I found suspicious, but idk, coulda just been being schizo). I then interpreted that as her covering up for something she had done to me, and I have been obsessed with the possibility I’m intersex and am supposed to have a vagina under my penis ever since, and a part of me fully expected my puberty to be at least partially feminizing, and still as an adult I have a dysphoria-profile that’s kinda weird…

Till this day I have not been karyotype tested because I’ve often feared that if I find out I’m endosex that’d destroy me for some reason. Good chance I’m not intersex, but I do have some indicators of MAIS I suppose, as I did have pre-hrt test levels that were in the 1000’s, and it just kinda turned me into a heavily brainfogged twink instead of an absolute gorilla. That’s my copium

I think personally I’m completely fucked and like super-charged AGP of the worst variant because I’m kinda stuck between idk three of all these artifacts…

1. The Gay Boy
2. The HSTS
3. The intersex

Am I fucked?

This is what I call “true community” knowledge!

Straight woman straight to straight transition is me

im the cool gamer girl probably ig

wait a minute, mentally masculinized by male puberty? what?

All of them at once

kind of a mix of these two maybe