im curious bc i feel like on the subreddit there were a lot more potential or actual youngshits. Id consider myself having been a potential youngshit as i found the board at 13 and considered diy but just didn’t do it bc im faketrans and assumed i was a trender and making it up. i did try and failed to get hrt through the official routes too though, i just didn’t really think i could trust myself with my own choices. i would have had a better life if id stayed on the board and kept thinking about diy tbh.
I’m the same way. Wanted to be a man my whole life, then suddenly a switch flipped and I became suicidally dysphoric. Who knows? Maybe it was one of those cosmic rays that flipped a single switch in my brain, like that Mario 64 speedrun.