I know BDD is pretty bad. I know that, but still. People have killed themselves because they’re not like you. Because you WILL pass and they may not. It isn’t fair. It just causes people harm when you’re immensely lucky and say someone with your measurements is doomed. 5’4 or loving parents or good genetics or whatever. It’s potent ropefuel. Then again, I also know what it’s like to have your personal lens distorted. Especially when you’re venting your own frustrations. Sometimes, even repeated confrontation with reality isn’t enough. The beast in our hearts always wants more. It’s a dilemma, but man it sucks.

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    how do you even know if you have bdd or not? like i don’t go as far as calling myself an ogrehon but i genuinely see myself as an ugly twinkhon and it hurts me.

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      See how many of its symptoms line up with you imagine. Depends on the merit you give self-diagnosis. But if you have a nice face and objectively good measurements but still see yourself as a disgusting ogre probably.

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        i don’t really trust self diagnosis because i know that i hope that i have bdd because it means what i see in the mirror isn’t real. i think deep down i know i don’t have it and im really just an ugly twinkhon

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            hmm yeah idk just seems like wishful thinking to me

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                that’s true but i think my self perception is actually pretty accurate. like i don’t think im an ogrehon or anything and all my flaws feel so real

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                  that is also how people with BDD feel. Look at Anna. She often genuinely sees herself as an ogrehon and believes her perception and reasoning to make sense to her.

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                    I think that’s true but it’s also how people with real issues feel. that’s why it’s so hard to know if you actually do have bdd or not