I know BDD is pretty bad. I know that, but still. People have killed themselves because they’re not like you. Because you WILL pass and they may not. It isn’t fair. It just causes people harm when you’re immensely lucky and say someone with your measurements is doomed. 5’4 or loving parents or good genetics or whatever. It’s potent ropefuel. Then again, I also know what it’s like to have your personal lens distorted. Especially when you’re venting your own frustrations. Sometimes, even repeated confrontation with reality isn’t enough. The beast in our hearts always wants more. It’s a dilemma, but man it sucks.
I am diagnosed with BDD and try not to verbalise it outwardly as frequently as I used to for this reason
but I can promise you that with genuine BDD (idk what proportion of “honlarpers” have genuine BDD) it’s not a bit it is completely serious
like it’s not “ugh I have one clocky feature I’m an ogrehon” it’s “I literally unironically look like a fucking alien or a cave troll”. and it’s what you actually see. it’s not you exaggerating for attention. it’s a literal miswiring of the brain that causes actual BDD, it’s not just a crashout for no reason
Literally, that’s the worst part. Everybody is suffering. It makes me so sad. I absolutely don’t want to come across as someone who scorns people with BDD. I worry for everyone, and I wouldn’t want anyone to fight.