just constantly thinking of death and suffering and failure and loss and sometimes there isnt even a concrete fear, just. fear. something. is happening. has happened. will happen. something bad. but i dont know what. i dont know what it is. but its very very bad.
i love you all, please be safe please:( i worry about all of you a lot:(
It is more or less what I meant. At nighttime there are less guardrails to stop your from being emotional and sensitive. You don’t need to perform or endure, the walls of self-control are very thin.