My sister is cruel. She doesn’t know I’m trans yet, she is pretty progressive, 3 years younger than me, but extremely cruel. During easter breakfast with my family she straight up said “why is your hair so long”. I didn’t answer, her tone was not like a genuine question but like trying to attack me.
Context: I’m growing my hair out rn, I didn’t get a haircut in a long time because I’m scared they’ll screw it up or make it masculine. I have to get through the awkward phase.
So I had asked her what’s her deal. She was rambling about something and told me I’m sub 5. This was not the first time she called me ugly. So if I really look so ugly irl, I think I might actually just become a hon at best. My parents nor my sister don’t suspect anything. It is genuine ropefuel when they refer to me as a guy, and I get reminded of what people perceive me as. I’m usually able to delude myself into thinking I’m feminine already by avoiding mirrors. But the fact that my sister treats me as a guy, even stereotypes me with guys, is so much ropefuel. Even when looking at her I realize it could’ve been me, and it hurts so much. I was hopeful that I could come out to her after starting HRT, but I think she’ll just laugh me off if I do so.
Genuinely, do yall think I should ever come out to her?
Yeha I’m planning to go to a hair salon while fag presenting, but my hair needs to get a bit longer. That way they won’t mess it up. My hair is also pretty fine but dense so I need to watch out with what works for me.
How long’s your hair? is it in the ‘‘awkward’’ stage ?
Yeah. Like the back is reaching my nape but sides up to chin and front section up to my lips but I side part it to cover my forehead. Looks kind of emo rn. Would honestly get bangs, but can’t due to boymode. It doesn’t look too good but is well maintained. Though I don’t understand someone commenting on my hair in an offensive way during easter breakfast. It should be obvious to people that I’m growing my hair out if I didn’t cut it for a while.