My sister is cruel. She doesn’t know I’m trans yet, she is pretty progressive, 3 years younger than me, but extremely cruel. During easter breakfast with my family she straight up said “why is your hair so long”. I didn’t answer, her tone was not like a genuine question but like trying to attack me.
Context: I’m growing my hair out rn, I didn’t get a haircut in a long time because I’m scared they’ll screw it up or make it masculine. I have to get through the awkward phase.
So I had asked her what’s her deal. She was rambling about something and told me I’m sub 5. This was not the first time she called me ugly. So if I really look so ugly irl, I think I might actually just become a hon at best. My parents nor my sister don’t suspect anything. It is genuine ropefuel when they refer to me as a guy, and I get reminded of what people perceive me as. I’m usually able to delude myself into thinking I’m feminine already by avoiding mirrors. But the fact that my sister treats me as a guy, even stereotypes me with guys, is so much ropefuel. Even when looking at her I realize it could’ve been me, and it hurts so much. I was hopeful that I could come out to her after starting HRT, but I think she’ll just laugh me off if I do so.
Genuinely, do yall think I should ever come out to her?
She just kinda is like this. Usually conversations with her flow nicely and it is fun and we share cool sibling energy, but sometimes she is straight up the rudest most selfish person I know. She is the only girl I really have conversations with. I only have like 2 male friends, and socially at school I’m not expected to talk with girls too much because I’ll be seen as a weirdo(prob already do), gay(prob already do), or smth else. I was super socially anxious when I’ve started highschool and nowadays I’m stuck in that social position. I don’t want to seen as a guy by girls, I hate this idea that they might think I’m talking to them out of reproductive instincts 🤮. I don’t also want to be seen as a gay friend.
mama are you in highschool? i would recommend being the gay friend actually i did that from like 8th grade through half of sophomore year or even better than that just be openly trans
I’m year 3 of highschool. It’d be completely unusual for me to suddenly start talking with people I’ve never talked with. I’d also probably get picked on much more. And my two friends expect me to talk with them, because we have like a trio friend group, I usually stay with them all the time. And they’re kinda neutral, not overly masculine, more withdrawn, more weird, kind of like me. I’m basically stuck in my social position, and I’m too awkward to start friendships unnaturally.
you should probably try and get off of here since youre so young. you can definitely make new friends when i was in high school i didnt make most of my friends until my third year you definitely should be open about being trans though i think that will probably be beneficial
In poland? While looking like a moid? Lmao, more likely that I’d get horribly bullied than accepted
openly trans…beneficial …?
what kind of progressive utopia did you go to school in?