every time i try to make friends or find community nobody likes me. im too jaded and miserable for sneeds, i dont want to be around cissoids who wouldnt want to humor my delusions. and it seems like everyone on here has blocked me too. i deserve it, im a horrible person to be around. im ugly and off putting and my height and broad frame probably scares people. irl i tower over everyone around me. i always mess up and upset everyone so much until they ghost me. i barely even have any hobbies at this point. i deserve to suffer and die i need to stop trying to make friends