probably taking ralox or another serm too and doing a low dose.

idk i just.

8 months.

i cant do that. i really cant.

im so scared. theyd be so angry and hurt and betrayed but.

idk. who knows. i may not but.

the idea came to me.

and.

and and.

maybe ill rep for a while more but.

therell be a. window. when yhey go to visit my brother.

a chance.

im sorry. i know its stupid. im sorry.

i just feel so afraid of. what 8 months will do to me.