I may be retarded. But its like, I can’t stand him anymore his standards for himself are down in the gutter, whenever I look at him now I feel Ick. Like he’s been more emotional about stupid shit than me. Idk. I wish he was better. My standards are way too low for cis guys to have even considered dating him. Idk and it feels like we have to different life goals. I dont wanna live in fucking Oklahoma for the rest of my life. Yet he wants to because of his family. Idfk I just didnt see any future for us. I dont love him anymore and I feel like he doesn’t love me, and only love the fact that I give him companionship. He has no ambitions and is complacent being the fucking manager at a fast food place. I need a man with more drive than me, more willpower, I dont need a weak man.