I feel like a moid, but also thats how id feel if i was having a serious mental health crisis or smth. Im scared to actually do anything because what if i wanna be a woman again in a few months and this was just an episode and then i wanna die. but also doing nothing and looking like this makes me wanna die. idk what to do it doesnt make sense to me that i used to like being a woman and now it makes me want to throw up, i dont understand how that happens