(THIS IS A REPOST OF SOMETHING I POSTED A FEW DAYS AGO ON THE SUB, REPOSTING TO SEE IF I’LL GET BETTER ANSWERS HERE, DELETE IF REPOSTS AREN’T ALLOWED)

what if i have no interest in killing myself or in dying (and i dont, i very much do not want to die) but i have rationally and logically concluded that i should?

i was originally going to make a giant long explanation on what my logic or rationale for it is, and how doing so is the best compromise for all parties involved (for me and for the people in my family who love me) taking into account what i am and am not, but im kinda too lazy to (at least rn) and i think the hypothetical may be more interesting

i dont want to die, but i think i should. is that kind of sentiment a bad thing? can it be countered even if the logic is airtight? (asking here because it directly connects to be trans)

  • malebrainedfinalbossOP
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    2 months ago

    i’m well aware of the grief part, but here’s the thing

    i’d rather they remember me as their son whom they loved very much and was the world to them that was tragically taken from them by the West/Trans Cult or whatever, than having them know of me as a grotesque monster who abandoned and betrayed everyone else for the sake of my delusions

    get what i mean?