Yeah sneedhons gonna sneed n all, but even some 4tranners post yurin stuff and I don’t understand it. I go out of my way to avoid seeing depictions of yuri/lesbian relationships because it makes me feel suicidal, knowing I’ll never have that, literally the most potent ropeduel for me. I sometimes wonder if I’ve pavlov’d myself out of being truly attracted to women because of this shame and stuff.
its escapism and fantasy for me, i guess i sort of cope in the opposite way you do. instead of avoiding it i try to get lost in it and let it feel real and take me away from the misery of my actual life