I think maybe being around the board and 4tran could have fucked me over since everyone is so much younger than me. Being 25 I think in most places online is seen as not terribly old for transition while here I see people doom about being as young as 16 and starting HRT. Not making a comment on others peoples right to doom.

I just feel like the perfect middle point of not being able to accept I’m old and fucked then becoming able to relate to other places online or being young enough I would be able to logically feel confident that I can transition into something not disgusting. Or maybe I am old and fucked then I’m just trying to logically escape being that by believing I’m in the middle.