i want to die young. or well, i wanted to. i feel like im past the point of dying young these days. i wish i had though. i dont really care all that much about legacy, but for some reason i have always been attached to this idea.

theres just something tragic, yet beautiful about the thought of me dying young. burning out fast, but shining brightly before i go. to never have had the chance to make mistakes, for the only memory of me to be that of an innocent child.

i think its probably a manifestation of my usual depression and longing for death, combined with my peter pan syndrome. because i never really wanted to grow up. i still dont really, but i already have. and to me, that feels worse than death

  • Anna ApesonEnglish
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    3 days ago

    yeah :(

    i used to be obsessed with ending my life before i turned 18, i felt like the horror and pain of all of this wouldn’t be as horrible if everything ended before my life ever really began. i would be asleep forever and would be free and would be myself.

    • UnfortunatelyAlexOP
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      3 days ago

      i know i can be rude and impatient with you a lot of the time, and im sorry for that, but i do truly believe you can find some peace and happiness Anna. i hope you get there, really