I don’t know what to do anymore. I am so ashamed of myself. Why am I like this? Why is my motivation to transition and dysphoria’s origin sexual in nature? Why don’t I have a female soul? I don’t get it. God made me because he hates me. There’s no other explanation for why I am like this. I hate being AGP, there’s nothing redeeming about it, it just shows how much of a moid I am spiritually. There is no woman trapped inside a man’s body, there is a man trapped in a man’s body and I am just a delusional hypersexual man who wants to be a woman.