Back when I was a repper I was dissociated more than I was present. It wasn’t always the same though. Sometimes I came back into my head and had no idea where I was or how I got there, sometimes it was just like someone took off a veil that had desaturated my vision and put weight into my movements. Mainly it was somewhere on that continuum. It’s a very weird feeling to live your life in snapshots. I can also barely remember anything that happened to me that I haven’t put effort into remembering, and have likely changed in the process.