During periods of crisis it occurs practically daily, during periods of stability It is much rarer and only emerges as a defense mechanism during times of stress.

it’s usually triggered by certain sounds, like gunfire or sharp metal or sometimes just stress. I usually “wake up” later. I don’t really remember anything that happens, but apparently I’m pleasant enough.

there is a degree of it that I feel most of the time I think. then there is a layer on top of that when I am extra stressed or in a crisis situations where I almost feel like a different person and I don’t feel anything, I am just acting on logic

its every day, usually it just feels like everything is new or co fusing

Back when I was a repper I was dissociated more than I was present. It wasn’t always the same though. Sometimes I came back into my head and had no idea where I was or how I got there, sometimes it was just like someone took off a veil that had desaturated my vision and put weight into my movements. Mainly it was somewhere on that continuum. It’s a very weird feeling to live your life in snapshots. I can also barely remember anything that happened to me that I haven’t put effort into remembering, and have likely changed in the process.

i can’t attest for periods of my life for which i don’t have written records, but in late 2023 i was disassociated heavily. it was a permanent miasma over me. i didn’t know who i was or what day i was or where i was or why for half the time. i just lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling.

It comes rather randomly, when any discussion or whatever starts a chain of thoughts that end in memories of trauma. Sometimes it’s rarer, sometimes it’s more often, but it definitely gets worse under pressure.