Our first kiss, asking her out, her finally saying yes, taking a 2 hour public transport trip to her place before I could drive, her showing me places in the city, showing her little places in my (smaller) city, finally getting my license and my car keys not ejecting from the ignition so one of us had to sit with the car while the other went to the shops, moving her in to my place, spending every day together, our holiday to Melbourne every moment of which is fresh in my mind like it was yesterday, giving each other promise rings.

My happiest moments are only in my mind now, and I can’t look forward to making new happy memories because she broke up with me. Whenever I imagine myself being happy it’s only in the past, never in the future.

I really should do it, everyone still in my life would be better off if I did tbh.

  • DysphoriaGirl
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    8 days ago

    Please don’t do it… I know this is hard… but try holding on to the good moments even if they hurt… she wouldn’t want you gone… it hurts I know… but with time the pain will go away… maybe never fully… but it will become more bearable… and these memories will become something good to look back on and not just pain and… one day… you’ll find new memories… even if just with yourself… please dont harm yourself… please be safe 🫂❤️

    Thr world wouldn’t be better without you… it would have one less person who tasted love… who can make art… who can be beautiful… who can show others that life can be comforting and warm and loving… Don’t go… please.