I will keep hrt repping. I can’t stand my friends pretending to see me as a woman while they clearly don’t, because why would they? I can’t pretend I deserve to be treated as a woman by other people anymore. I was supposed to meet someone’s parents like that, can you imagine it?? I’m gonna larp as an estrogenised twink until I get surgeries which may be anywhere between two years from now and never - at least I have booked ffs consult in 14 months to look forward to thanks to one wonderful person.

  • mljemy
    6·
    6 days ago

    Listen I really get boymoding, I overdid it myself. But this “deserve” stuff is just the wrong emotion to feel, you were infinitely deserving of all of it but it was robbed from you, the only appropriate emotions are sadness and anger. You have just as much of a “right” as anyone else and if people disagree they should be stabbed.

    Now a lot easier to say and somewhat believe stuff like this than actually doing it but I think believing you deserve it but still boymoding is a considerable step up for mental health

    I can’t stand my friends pretending to see me as a woman while they clearly don’t,

    But yeah this part sucks (hope they get stabbed sorry not sorry its just my religion)

    • TamaraOP
      3·
      6 days ago

      It’s hard to think I deserved something I never had and even rejected at first… But I definitely am sad and angry about it too. I’m too pathetic to think that I deserve things and can demand something from others, more often I just want to apologise for my existence.

      At least I still somehow see myself as a woman and have no doubts about it, there is nothing masculine about me except for the shape of my prison. I only wish it was visible to people around me. For now I can’t be mad at anyone treating me like a regular faggot when I look like I do.

      • mljemy
        2·
        6 days ago

        I’m too pathetic to think that I deserve things and can demand something from others, more often I just want to apologise for my existence.

        I know :(

        But you do

        It sucks that usually only shitty unaware people end up standing up for themselves in situations like yours, and im not even saying stab your friends, just idk dont think that its not on them. I haven’t seen face pics but i’ve seen some snippets and yeah you look female enough for it to not be a deep issue for the brain to gender you female, im sorry youre stuck with the people here. If they had mild empathy and understanding it wouldn’t be an issue