I’m sorry I was born this way okay? I don’t want to continue to be a boymoding neet. I want to live. But I’m too ashamed, and afraid of being visually trans. I tell myself moving someplace else would make things better, but would it really? It’s not like im able to anyway. I really do want to move on… move foward. But I just can’t do it. Even at my most normal “best self”, I am still pathetic and without worth.