When I was in high school, I was a relatively popular kid, friends with everyone, had gf, invited to parties, etc. This he, who was me, even bullied people (completely idiotic).
One day, after a swimming lesson, While changing in the locker room, I accidentally dropped my towel and everyone saw my genitals. Not all, but a fair number.
And then came that “WTF FELIX YOUR DICK IS HUGE” moment. And I had to pretend I was proud of having a big penis. But god, good god, how I hated that thing and its size.
I spent my entire high school years hearing jokes about how I was a centaur, a titan, and that my girlfriends must suffer (I had a reputation of having two girlfriends, But I only had one girlfriend and one great girl friend.).
This is so bizarre. I ran into those boys the other day, and they respected me, at least to my face.
Yeah, I remembered that today while washing the dishes.
Gosh that sounds like an awful experience. At least they respected you now. Probably due to having a greater understanding of the world. That’s reminded me of a high school experience tbh
Honestly, there was this one girl which I told about my true self and they kept pushing me to not be a repper: in multiple ways. If only I had listened
This is a truly horrible experience… I honestly feel like mine is just bragposting in some way.
Not really because it is inherently about a dysphoric thing. She honestly was very kind. For example, when I said that I wanted to experiment with different clothes. She helped support that and attempted for me to have the confidence to girlmode, but was unsuccessful or at a minimum use my name more widely rather than the incorrect one. Got so close to actually doing it, but yet so far
Total jock turned trans… well… seems the whole “I knew since I was six and I was always so feminine” fairy tale is just that… a fairy tale… but how do you deal with it… remembering yourself as having been so utterly hypermasculine and chudish and all…
Because doing that myself makes me wanna die.
Knowing that I wasn’t myself, just a caricature to please others.
That makes sense… 🫂
downvoted for being a bully
Completely fair.
But in my defense: I had just changed schools and I was literally living a character because my bully at my previous school had punished me with corrective rape until I detransitioned.
I hope all my bullies were dysphoric and became gigahons
