that and not being fit/skinny. maybe i had dysmorphia this whole time. everytime i look at old pictures they dont look as bad as I remember them being. at least for my body. my face always looks horrid.
i hate being this way. i feel like such a weirdo for wanting to have negative androgyny.
yeah idk. i think a good portion of my problems with my body really are just posture and fitness related. i feel so lost and confused