Im an annoying retard but think I have found the core reason behind all of this and what triggers it. People describing having severe dysphoria saying it’s something they would end their life over is something I cannot exactly relate to and that causes me to think I’m faketrans. Do I have dysphoria? I guess I do. I don’t think I have it bad as other people though and that’s ok, some people might just better at coping and I might be one of those people.