Honestly places like this have only increased my dysphoria by an order of magnitude, due to brianworms and stuff. Even if it was bad, it was never that bad. Today during lessons my teacher noticed I’m distressed. I was dissociating like hell, yet I still felt pain. I can’t let this be visible to the outside world. So I’ll avoid mirrors, trans media, trans stuff in general. I hope that this can make me think through if DIY is justified in case I struggle even with an avoidant lifestyle.