It’s so fucking annoying but I can’t help it. I still can’t understand how I didn’t question anything until 20. I still cant understand how I was porn addicted and basically didn’t have bottom dysphoria until questioning. Every time someone posts some bs about faketrans this faketrans that I start spiraling and the doubting starts all over again. The new legendary cope that I discovered because of Will Powers is that since I don’t have hypospadias I’m faketrans LIKE DO U HEAR HOW STUPID THIS IS ALL IS.

Everything points to faketrans rogd yet I have no intention of getting off estradiol and have experienced no reverse dysphoria.

I mean it’s just so retarded. What man would give himself gyno and be happy with it? What man would willingly give himself ED and low libido??

I think the source of the problem is that I still haven’t truly accepted that I’m a tranny. I just can’t believe it it’s all so surreal.

I’m sorry if these posts are really annoying and dumb I’ll stop posting if I’m just being annoying :(

  • its_ogreOP
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    8 days ago

    Wasn’t the hypospadias thing just about trannies who get poor results from e?

    yeah you’re right, my brain just latched onto the one thing that was an easy biomarker for transness as a way to fuel the doubting, it’s stupid ik

    And I mean if you’re happy with what you’re doing then surely that means you’re not faketrans?

    I’m like 90% sure at this point that the faketrans doubting is just cope because I can’t accept I’m trans. I just can’t accept it idk why. It’s just such a strange thing to be. I just can’t believe I’m not a normal cis white male. No way I’m like those people that change their pronouns and stuff, that’s not me that could never be me. I’m just a normal guy lol!!

    I’ll keep introspecting and trying to work through this, but it’s really difficult. And honestly it’s making me delay my transition in some ways. Like i literally honmoded in front of my parents and then got scared and went back into my shell because “what if I’m wrong?” It’s all so stupid…