i hate being so distant and flakey. its not even like im purposefully avoidant. sometimes i can be when im feeling overwhelmed but mostly im just bad at remembering to check in with people.
then when time passes and i think to message someone, i feel too awkward too. like theyd be annoyed or hate me for not staying in contact which just makes me put it off more
Somehow I always feel like inviting someone to do something or talk is always a much bigger risk than it ever is I don’t even know what I’m afraid of really