I never have before, even from a young age I knew i didn’t want them. For the most part i’ve always not liked children overall even if some were bearable.

However, today i was visiting my mom and a local 6yo neighbor girl who comes by for candy often came over. She kept asking me questions like, “What’s that?” (a charm pendant on my phone), “Did you put makeup on?” (“Yes I did, do you like it?” “Yeah!”), “Do you have games on your phone?” (“yes, i have Pokemon would you like to play that?” “Pokemon! Yeah!”), “Who’s this?” (about a song playing) (“Tessa Violet, do you like her? I can write down the song for you.” “Yeah!”).

She was just so so sweet and smiley and giggly and I felt like my soul healed a little bit… but now this is the first time being unable to get pregnant has legitimately bothered me… merp :l idk if this will change my whole mentality about kids but it was so pleasant as to get me thinking about it