Fear of failing to kms and ending up worse as a result

Past that just inertia I guess

I dont even know

The inability to kill myself, maybe Narcissim… idk

the fear of no afterlife

Stubborn refusal to die before people I hate and the lingering hope that maybe there’s a life worth living on the other side of all this shit

delusions of grandeur

refusing to be buried male + partner + hoping my parents die asap so i can afford surgeries

where else would I go?

my dog

my cat

vidya