The most deluded thought I’ve ever had was maybe a lesbian would hit on me but I know the reality that’s never going to happen and I’m delusional for thinking any real lesbian would ever want me. I was delusional enough to believe I could look like a poon in boymode but my shoulders are too wide to ever to seen as girl in boy clothes and I think the worst one was I thought i could pull off hair cuts without bangs.

I’m too androgynous to pull off most feminine clothes and not look like a boy or a tranny. If I was actually a real girl I would’ve had so many friends, i wouldn’t hate going to work and being reminded I’m a tranny i wouldn’t hate going outside.

That post ruined my day when I saw it because I wish I could be in a lesbian relationship so bad I know it’s never going to happen pre surgery maybe never but this poon was picking them up so easily if I was just as real girl my life wouldnt have been fundamentally robbed.