Used to be a passoid bcuz 5’7", SEA, my Mom obsessed with me doing skincare, I grew my hair out in highschool, malefailed in my senior year. Couldn’t get into my dream uni so now I’m at a Tranny Killer State University that gives free College, so had to detran

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I’m gonna start DIY in 6-9 months, not now cuz I don’t have the money yet and I’m trying to save up. Living at a country where your money is worth piss in comparison is so over, but at least SubQ vials last for more than a year, and I’m only turning 19 by the time I can get my shots, so I have that going for me. I can post a picture of when I used to malefail if anyone wants to rate me

I already have an exit plan and all that, took BSEE too for easier exit. High functioning, and masking so even if I start HRT I won’t get clocked(although I already get maam’d even pre-hrt, but boymoding is pretty easy), and I can push through with my exit plan. Idk what to write about anymore, I don’t like to post so my writing is awkward af. Only being able to save up like 2$ a day feels so horrible, seeing how much I need to make just to stop my body from giving me Total Tranny Death and making me look like my dad(Although I look more like my mom, but testosterone will probably take that away from me in my mid-20s unless I start DIY).

Only way for me to get a shot to not being in complete poverty is going to the tranny killer university and detransitioning, they police hair cuts, the people here are conservative, you can just feel the vibes in them like they’re mountain people who cannibalizes queer people if they sense it in you. Just four more years of misery, another year or two of gaining work experience, then I can finally get out of here. Just dissociate, supress everything, and wait, just 5-6 more years, I’ve done it all my life, a few more won’t make a difference. But they are very well-known, and taking this offer is my only good chance at having a good life, one that wouldn’t force me to stay here and pay student debt, still feels pretty bad though.

Sometimes I miss having long hair, dressing up in frilly clothes, going out to parties and malls in feminine clothing, playing at the arcade with my friends, knowing they all see me as a girl, and are even protective of me. But I don’t have any of them now, it’s better this way I guess, at least I can completely shut off all my emotions and I can actually be inactive, and pass time.

Not looking for money, don’t donate, just testing the waters out °^°

  • Koolplayer12OP
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    1 month ago

    I live in a country that was colonized by multiple countries for 300 years, the people here are trained to be drones and are outsourced to be cheap labor for other countries. The government doesn’t want to spend any money in infrastructure so they built the whole economy on remittances, taking over what the americans bought our country from the spaniards for. One of their aids in propagating that was having tons of state universities that are free colleges so people won’t be discouraged by the prices of college and by extension, high-skill work, which the country needed to desparately fight for to have even more money. They built those systems so we can be their good working class that gives them money while everyone is going deeper and deeper in poverty because they care more about enriching themselves

    It sucks that other countries don’t have free colleges too :< My greatest motivation to studying is to never be indebted to my parents and give them another thing to dangle over my head and guilt me into being their good subservient son