I never get to experience the childhood of a cis girl. Even if my normal childhood wasn’t bad objectively, it is still tainted forever by having grown up as a boy. I will never get that time back. I am forever doomed to look through shit-tinted glasses back at everything in my past, even the happy moments. Everything is stained because of my fucking birth defect.

My family is financially and generally supportive, but I can tell most of them indulge me instead of seing me as female. It just hurts. The only people I that view me as female are the ones I met post transition, which essentially are my bf’s family and my co-workers.

I will never be able to escape the past and this disgusting curse of an affliction, and most cis people just laugh about it and say “I should just embrace being trans” Fuck you why would I fucking do that it will just make it worse.

Tldr: Being trans is one of the worst ways to experience sentience, so we must be in some sort of hell

  • LooseSandwich543
    111·
    2 months ago

    id agree but this post is literally just a list of 1000 ways your life is better than mine, so kindly fuck off and be happy already

  • Alex
    91·
    2 months ago

    while i agree on principle this just feels like a halfhearted attempt to hide a bragpost under a more palatable opinion

    • Felni989Banned from communityOP
      31·
      2 months ago

      It isn’t. I am currently watching over my niece, and it makes me feel like absolute dogshit

      • Alex
        5·
        2 months ago

        by all means you might not have meant it like that but it does come across like that.

        idk, everyone has the right to vent of course. just that, you could’ve posted about how being trans sucks without including the details of being stealth or having a supportive family is all

        • Felni989Banned from communityOP
          11·
          2 months ago

          I just needed to vent this shit, I have no other place I can than here that would get it. it’s just a lot of tiny grievances that add up :/

  • CutePlushies
    3·
    2 months ago

    You are in a unique position where I was thinking about what you said the other day and it is very true that its tough to leave a community like this and live amongst exclusively the cis because its impossible to fully integrate with a people who are not your kind, yet you also (seemingly) pass too much for the bitterhons of 4tran to really relate with you much either. I genuinely feel kinda bad I’m sorry nona