what a complete waste of my life. waited for hrt until 22. its over.

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    16 days ago

    Same… Daily life is so painful there is no reason to keep living tbh, I keep thinking every fucking day how different and wonderful my life would be if I started at age 12 or 13… I live in the past now because present is too painful.

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    16 days ago

    if it helps, i started at 24. it isnt over, but i know how you feel. its really hard

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        16 days ago

        im sorry. i cant let go of everything ive mised out on either. youre not alone

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          16 days ago

          i shouldn’t be in this crowd i shouldnt be at all i’m supposed to be a midshit who started at 19 why am i here

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            16 days ago

            i know. i basically still feel like a teen because of my lost years. i know this seems meaningless but i guess we can continue existing because of the possibility of a better future? i mean we arent in our 30s at least, tons of people start hrt at those ages. this is what i cope with at least

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              16 days ago

              honestly i feel like i’m still a teen yet anything i do to be a teen makes me feel like an adult being infantile. i don’t want to live like this.

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                16 days ago

                about acting younger, its honestly fine. i understand you might feel like youre infantilizing yourself, but at least other people pretty much dont care. age, in many ways, really is just a number. act how you want, dont feel bad about of it because you arent doing anything wrong